A Woman Divided.
(This poem is inspired by a painting by Dali and was read on the radio show Late Night Poets.)
inside the screech of birds is deafening
soaring and pummelling thoughts to clouds,
my arms fling upwards to embrace the emptiness
of sky and solidity of stars.
ripping myself in two is a daily task.
I tread the yellow shore with care
make lunches and walk responsibly to work
feeling the shackles of life cry at my ankles
as seaweed clasps the crags of rocks.
the horizon snips, snips redly at me,
sails through me as I try to hold myself
to account and grasp the bitterness
of burnt out days and make them fly
from a woman split, a woman spilt,
a woman divided.
An arc of iron over us always
the cold leaden-green flow
of river lapping endlessly
at the gravel scatter shore;
firstly visible and then tide smothered
yet offering transit.
The climb is all smooth steps
stone foot fall worn
into waved depressions
by so many other journeys-
to the stretch and view
of change and its
and so it is the path leads
pushing backwards and on.
She ghosts the narrow soar of streets
hunched with morning and dimness;
drumming hollowly awake
with slackening sleep winking away
from the splutter of sheets to this push
at pavements, boots heavy with lethargy.
Work; a sloped walk to come.
Engines are churning somewhere west
of here and emptiness is engulfing.
Blades of ceiling fans whirl
brushing heat downwards
as if a land closes small against a sky
and balls itself within a mind,
leading it muttering with fevered night
to the blankness that faces us only
taunting us with its contradiction
of silence amongst the hum of a distant city.
and the unslept dark lizards
itself inside, marking out
doubts; chalk lined as crimes
and Sleep, a welcome executioner
to this unspent crumple of hours,
is as unknown as all history.
so many crowding the carriages each
voice vying with the track's clatter.
I sit holding still,
a word beat bleakly in my palm -
greyness fluttering in gauze -
its ache real and needing release.
scudding my mind ideas gloom a horizon
and burn themselves to air,
my tongue breeding pain to empty
and all around from rough ground,
sliding from an encasement of leaves,
new voices quiver
I open my door and find you waiting
Amongst autumn and falling, failing light
Dressed in the thickness of a dun overcoat
The verdurous twine of ancient forests
Un-scrolling as you speak.
Your cracked lips shape islands as words isolate
The truth of your visit and the sickness
Of plastic churns grey in our ocean guts.
Inside I offer pain-killers and recycle
Panaceas of wisdom.
We analyse the figures
And skate through thinning ice against
The brooding night as the drift of damp moss
Grows through our conversation claiming
A small victory against the great highway.
Did you call too late?
Outside the concrete is spread and setting.
These Hard Worked Hours.
office windows; squares of unflinching
yellow lit geometry.
from the train I watch them slide
their flickered familiarity to darkness
and watch the dizzying feet
of countless commuters
dust the ruler-line platform
with the news-papered security
of a repeated journey.
and inside minds lurch to life
with the jolt and halt of stations
a few hours of chosen chaos
these hard worked hours.
Haiku Chain: Shades and Sirens
Violet quavers shades
to the blaring light;
evening siren shards
clatter our slow ears
with city ambivalence
commuting each day
lone among miasmas
and a lapsing flowered time
blusters train windows.
against the evening
I press home
through long streets
and bewildering journeys
searching the music
stave of the paved street
for your echoes
A day too late
I am told later.
and the shabby subterfuge
of stumbled words
stands shadow like
Haiku String: Mirrors.
Silver image smiling pretence,
Homage to the world.
Inside a heart lurches
Uneasy with its daily task
Blood ribbons unfurl.
Amid city streets
People wait, concern ticking slow
Behind glass eyes.
Lamenting from Space
Paved, tarred streets smother us
Beneath, if you listen,
Grass echoes its longing
And ancient verges, glades
And meadows sweet ache
In our fox soul of red souls
As we tread wearily,
Ceaselessly towards a confinement
an astronaut I heard
lamenting from the station
cries knowing amongst our gains
loss lays heavy lidded
bleeding breaths, mon-oxide doused,
to a paling sky.
Shoving up between each step
Weeds protest their places
Pretence we scatter home
To find waiting lonely
and wilting, shedding leaves,
journey in green tears.
Dials shifting with digital tides
Throb inside our unblinking eyes
Data coded irises encrypt
Identities with sky scanned script
Secrets shift amid security
Beneath each programmed byte
Powered nanoseconds green light
The home with wired wonderment
While hovering optic mirrors gloat
With messages and smooth drones
Deliver messages to phones
Proclaiming health and happiness -
The cut carnations blare
They have become flares
Floodlighting the dusk cloaked city,
With a cultivated fluorescence.
Their blooms pirouette
Tutu ruff heads,
Twisting in the creeping night,
Their petals trembling
Like pantomime comic clowns,
Yellow wigs out of place.
Ungainly, quivering and nodding
Bowing knobbly stem bodies
Against the glassy chill
Of the listless vase.
My eyes clamber to them,
Like two dying bees desperate to hug
Their brightness, eager to offer
My body up to the imagined heat
Of these dissembling Olympian torches;
Pyres of summer light.
So aloof, so aimless and absurd
Bunched together in the throes
Of certain death.
And so it is we travel.